June 2011
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Shame
He asked me what I’ve been up to. I said nothing. When did I become such a liar? I thought about everything that has happened, everything I’ve learned about myself. But I couldn’t tell him. And as soon I said “nothing,” I felt the shame. I convinced myself that the truth will hurt him. But that’s a lie too. I’m just trying to make myself feel better for...
Guilt?
I didn’t do anything wrong, but why do I feel like I need to confess? What is the right thing to do?
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Please Slow Down
I’m scared of starting junior year. I’m scared I’ll return to hiding from the world. I’m scared I’ll lose everything that makes me happy. I’m at a good place right now, so why is the future in such a rush to get here? Some things are inevitable, but I really wish time would stop moving so quickly.
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Even people I’ve known for so long soon become strangers to me. People change...
– Megan Fox (via misskara)
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people say if you're not gonna get married,
pdp98degrees:
then what’s the point? but it’s more about the now then the “to come”. so what if we don’t have kids, get married, or grow old together? we’re growing old together right now, and who knows, we might not live till tomorrow, so make the best of today.
i completely agree
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Stuck
This hiding in the dark business was fun at first, but now I’m starting to feel lost. Is it too late to get out?
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“You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see, but you can’t close your heart to the things you do not want to feel”
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dysfunctional
I’ve heard the story so many times, although it always changes depending on who told the story. I’m sure you didn’t mean to hurt each other. The cheating, the lies, the angry insults. You both made mistakes, but it’s too late for regrets. Just don’t expect me to choose a side, because I don’t know what to think anymore.
I liked it better when I thought you...
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8AM
For the past 3 days, I’ve been waking up at 8am with no alarm clock. This is strangely unusual, since I have always been the heavy sleeper who doesn’t wake until everyones already had lunch. It’s not like I have anything important to do these days, so what am I so excited about that I can’t even sleep past 8? What is my body trying to tell me?
iiandy:
and he’s only three years old…
gangstaaa
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The Secret to Happiness
I wish someone will tell me how to obtain true happiness. The fulfilling, can’t wipe that smile off my face, feeling warm and tingly inside kind of happiness. If it exists, why is it so hard to find? And after you do find it, why is it so easy to lose?
I’m willing to fight for my happiness. Just tell me what I’m fighting.
Wake up
The fantasy world was nice while it lasted. But the dream is over, time to face reality.
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Internal Battle
I’m jealous of those people who can live with their flaws and move on. I accept that no one’s perfect, I like that my flaws make me unique, but if there’s room for improvement, shouldn’t we strive for perfection? I lack the motivation and determination to be the best that I can be. What do I have to do to stop this internal battle with myself?
I’m my own worst enemy.
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